Choices...

I read a post from the blog of Dr. Jeremy Statton this morning and it prompted this post...

We all are given the gift of freedom.
Freedom to make choices.
Every choice we make carries with it a natural consequence.
Choices, and their natural consequences, add up over time.
Choices may seem trivial at the time, but in time, they determine our future.
What and how much we eat, whether or not we exercise, what we allow our minds to dwell on, how we spend our time and money, how we treat others...
God doesn't point an accusatory finger at us, shame us, or even punish us when we make certain choices. He simply warns us that our choices themselves carry natural consequences.
He doesn't leave us alone in this broken world, but offers to walk with us and talk with us.
He offers us His wisdom and guidance. 
To those who choose to open their eyes, he gives the gift of sight. 

email conversations...

I'm glad you've found a place that offers the structure that's helpful to you, and yet the freedom that allows you to set boundaries and not be controlled. Maybe we all thrive in different environments. Or maybe God calls us to different environments at different times because it's what we need at that particular time. For me right now, I feel like God is inviting me into a different space. I feel like I've been painting by numbers for so long and trying so hard to stay in the lines, that painting became an obligation rather than a joy. I'm now enjoying the freedom and messiness of painting freehand. It was scary at first, but now I can't imagine painting any other way. What's most important, is that everyone find the path that helps them walk closely with Him. What hinders one may be helpful to another.

   

 I believe God has a variety of ways to speak to his children. For me, I have been enjoying listening podcasts and reading books by Wayne Jacobson and Greg Boyd. God is using them to heal me in some areas I wasn't even aware I was broken in. They are helping me root out the picture of a scary God and replace it with a safe and loving God that I can trust. God is using them to minister to me how deeply I'm loved... warts and all. He used their preaching and teaching to open my eyes to the how my despicable judgement had kept me from truly loving people. God's also used my journey of adoption and just parenting in general to show me the incredible healing power of unconditional love. (L.R. Knost, Laura Markham, Bryan Post, Heather Forbes, and Karen Purvis are authors and speakers that have taught me so much about what unconditional love really is.) Tomorrow he may use a different messenger or speak a different message, one that untwists something else that I have twisted; or maybe take me deeper into his love and freedom. Who knows? He leads, I just follow. He constantly speaks to me through books, music, art, nature, my children, my neighbors, strangers... It's often unexpected, but quenches something deep inside my soul that I have been thirsting for. I'm learning to walk with him and listen to his voice and trust his guidance. I know that he will make available to me exactly what I need, when I need it. I've learned that what's helpful for me and where I am, is not necessarily helpful for another. But like you, I occasionally throw something out there that speaks to me, just in case it might minister to someone else.

Gotta run for now and get dinner started. As usual, I love our conversations...

I love email conversations that cause me to ponder...

When I have free time, there is nothing I enjoy more than gleaning wisdom from another. Every single person is a teacher and has something to teach me that I don't know. My kids teach me a ton! There are no filters with kids. 

In my late 20's and early 30's, I was pretty sure I knew everything. Sheesh! All I claim to know for sure now is... Hmmm, we'll I guess that I know nothing for sure. I do however believe with all of my heart that love is the most powerful thing in the world and trumps everything! So I make it my goal to live in love and strive to only have one opinion about every person I encounter... That they have unsurpassable worth. (It's my conviction and my goal, but I sure do miss the mark quite a bit!)

I believe that only our Creator knows each persons whole story, so He is the only one who can rightly judge. It seems to me that we all do the best we can at any given moment. Sometimes my best is pretty awful. I try to remember that when someone is hurting me or my kids. It helps me not get into the pay back evil with evil cycle. It was tough today because Emma was made fun of at school. I told her, "Honey, they are stupid. They just don't know any better!" Okay, well that was the best I could do at that particular moment... 

I think the idea of us having a weekend sounds awesome! Trey and I might actually have some interesting conversations too! Mom use to say I ought to be a lawyer. When I was growing up, I had some pretty solid arguments as to why I should get my way! Hahaha.

You lost me at Ducks... I've never heard that term??? It must be a political term. I don't keep up with politics because I never know who to believe. But as far as everyone being God's children! I'm with you! And as imperfect a parent as I am, there is nothing my kids can do to make me not love them! I am always for them and never against them. How much more extravagant is God's love and grace for His children! As far as God's children go, who are we to throw stones at each other? Who among us is so innocent that they can throw a stone? 

I agree with you, what a peaceful world we would live in if we would just do what Jesus said, "Do unto others..." I wish we would all treat each other as we want to be treated. Maybe God gave us that golden rule as a way to have heaven here on earth, but we think we know better. I was typing up an email to my boys just the other day, telling them that we can either view others through the lens of judgement and intolerance or through the lens of love, grace, kindness, compassion, and forgiveness. I said, view others the way you want to be viewed... model the respect you want reflected back to you. (But like a lot of my emails... I never did hit "send". It would have come out of the blue. Whenever a light comes on for me, I tend to want to share it with those I love, but I realize that out of the context of conversation, it could be quite offensive.)

I think one of the reasons we don't treat others with love and respect is because we often fear what we don't understand. I've read that all negative behavior is rooted in fear. The bible says perfect love drives out all fear, but seems to me, vice versa is also true... all fear casts out perfect love!!! If we could lay aside our fear, there would be nothing to block the love. Maybe we think if we withhold love, it will shame someone into changing their behavior. But creating more fear is not the answer. It's like throwing wood on a fire. Fear pushes away and causes people to go further into darkness and hiding, while love connects and heals and creates a safe place for people to bring things into the light. I could go on and on with my deep pondering... sometimes I get lost in it.

Gotta run for now... 

Love u

My New Mantra

My goal is not to be perfekt, but to acknowledge, accept, and reflect God's love toward myself and others...

I don't know how I put up with that man???

This morning Keith and I were emptying the dishwasher. I was handing him the mugs and he was putting them in the cabinet. He noticed my eyebrows go up and said, "Does that not meet your approval, babe?" I said, "No worries, I'll fix it when you go to work." Later he walked in the kitchen and saw me standing on a chair fixing the mugs. He said, are they all lined up the right way now??? I said, "One day you'll thank me for this..." hee hee. He just smiled and shook his head at his quirky wife.

Last night while I was cooking dinner, he was in the office pulling songs off youtube and playing them for me. He said, "Babe, listen to these songs, they remind me of you..." (I put the links to each song below.)

 Brad Paisley's, She's everything I ever wanted - (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JCjXaEbrLdw)

Clint Black and Lisa Hartman's, When I said I do - (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XoZC0Lkji2A)

Brad Paisley's, I live for little moments like that - (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vBErCVNP6rM)

As he played the last song, he walked into the kitchen and saw tears spilling from the corners of my eyes.  He hugged me and we slow danced. There is no greater blessing than to be married to  the one who really "gets you" and loves you just the way you are!

Here are some of my favorite websites...

Here are some of my favorite parenting websites:

http://www.littleheartsbooks.com/2013/01/01/12-steps-to-gentle-parenting/ - 12 steps to gentle parenting

http://www.ahaparenting.com/ - Dr. Laura Markham’s website

http://greatparentingshow.com/replay.html - The great parenting show (interview with Dr. Laura Markham... great info!)

http://www.beyondconsequences.com/archive.html - This one has great Q & A's! Heather Forbes gives practical and genius advice that works. Read one article a day or week of hers, whatever works in your schedule. But you will definitely want to add this to your bookmarks and read every one of them.

http://www.beyondconsequences.com/ - This is where you can sign up to get Heather's daily reflections. They come to your email every day. Very short reminders that help you shift from parenting from a place of fear (which is prevalent in our culture) to parenting from a place of love. 

http://empoweredtoconnect.org/what-every-adoptive-parent-should-know/ - These are short video snippets that Karen Purvis does. I've heard a whole 8 hour seminar from this woman and it changed everything about my parenting. Keith also listened to it and it helped us get on the same page. But these short video snippets will give you a glimpse of Karen Purvis and what she teaches.

http://empoweredtoconnect.org/resources/ - This is Karen Purvis's website and is full of great stuff.

http://www.postinstitute.com/ - Bryan Post was in foster care as a child and now has foster children. So not only does he have all the degrees, but he has the experience to help defiant and out of control children. His wife is also an expert in the field. They both really know what they’re talking about. Bryan also has some great, short, practical videos on youtube. On his website, click "store" and you will find the book, From Fear To Love. This is a book you will want to order and read over and over again! You’ll also want to click "free stuff" and download the book, How To End Lying Now. It really works! It makes so much sense, I can’t believe I didn’t see that what I was doing was making my kids lying worse!

http://bbryanpost.wordpress.com/ This is Bryan Post's blog.

http://parentingthatheals.org - Great parenting Website!

All of these are free and you can read on your own time. You can also order their books or dvd's. To me these are some of the best therapists out there, they are free, and I can invite them into my home everyday if I want (through the computer). Sending our kids to a therapist one or two hours a week will not provide lasting change for them. It's the parents, their primary caretakers, who are with them 24/7 that need coaching and support so they can most effectively guide their children.

Each of these therapist came to my attention by different people at just the right time. I was initially seeking help with one of my daughters to help her through the trauma of her adoption. At that time, one of my sons was struggling through a difficult transition, and the traditional parenting method of shame/threats/punishments/consequences seemed only exacerbate the problem and push him further away. When I started seeing the wisdom in what these therapist were saying and how much in line with scripture it was, I started parenting all my children this way. Things didn't change over night, but day by day, little by little, it changed everything. It changed how I see negative behavior and how I respond to it, which changed how my children responded. It is so countercultural that it may sound ridiculous to you at first, but the gospel sounds that way too... love your enemy, turn the other cheek, bless those who curse you... I promise, this is powerful stuff. It's also great to have at least one friend that can walk alongside you through this. There is also a lot of support on their websites. You can chat with other parents going through some of the same things you are going through. Don't get overwhelmed by all this, just try to grab a moment here and there, or sit down with a cup of coffee and enjoy reading this stuff. Make it part of your routine, it will be worth it. It will slowly change the way you think and feel, which will affect your actions toward your children, which will have a ripple affect on your entire household. Your home will become a safe place, a peaceful place over time. Don't throw this out if you are not getting quick results... true, lasting change is a slow process, not a pill that will fix everything overnight.

Here's an article I got from Heather Forbes:

Reactive attachment disorder (RAD) is a mental health diagnosis listed in the Diagnostic 

and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IVTR) under disorders usually first 

diagnosed in infancy, childhood, or adolescence. RAD was initially introduced to the 

mental health community some 20 years ago. Since that time, much of the information 

regarding this disorder has painted a dismal and often dangerous picture of these children. 

Books and articles have compared children with RAD to serial killers, rapists, and hard- 

core criminals. Intensive and often physically aggressive therapies have been developed 

to treat these children. Additionally, unconventional parenting techniques have been 

taught to parents in order to control these children—children referred to as “disturbed” or 

“unattached.” 

The main premise of RAD is that the child cannot socially connect or attach to others in 

interpersonal relationships. Behaviors inhibiting attachment to caretakers are often 

demonstrated by children diagnosed with RAD. Some of the behavioral symptoms 

published in literature include the following: oppositional; frequent and intense anger 

outbursts, manipulative or controlling; little or no conscience; destructive to self, others, 

and property; cruelty to animals or killing animals; gorging or hoarding food; and 

preoccupation with fire, blood, or violence.  

Wow! Read that list again. Many of these behaviors sound downright frightening. It is 

hard to imagine that a child can do these things. Yet, while these behaviors certainly 

appear abnormal for anyone, especially a child, they are actually quite reasonable 

reactions to the experiences these children have endured. Read on…. 

There are many life events that can cause attachment trauma between the primary 

caretaker (usually the mother) and the child. These include an unwanted pregnancy, 

separation from the birthmother due to adoption, death of a parent, premature birth, 

inconsistent caretakers, abuse, neglect, chronic pain, long-term hospitalizations with 

separations from the mother, and parental depression. Such life events interrupt a child’s 

ability to learn to self-regulate through the relationship with the parent.  

Typically, when a baby or small child is in a state of stress, he cries and the parent attends 

to the child’s needs, whether by feeding, rocking, or simply holding him. Each and every 

one of these interactions with the parent plays a critical part in assisting the development 

of the child’s neuro-physiological control system—the system that allows the child to 

return back to a calm state. It is truly through this parent-child relationship that we as 

humans learn how to self-regulate in order to stay balanced and easily shift from a state 

of stress back to a state of calm. This regulatory mechanism within us is not “online” at 

birth, and brain research has shown that it takes up to thirty months before this part of the 

brain is fully developed. Within this thirty-month timeframe, a well-attuned parent has 

connected with this child to calm his stress response system thousands, if not millions, of 

times. How critical these first thirty months are to a baby! It is through the parent-child 

relationship that a child’s self-regulatory ability becomes engaged. This internal 

regulatory system then sets the foundation for the child’s neurological, physical, 

emotional, behavioral, cognitive, and social development.  

When a child does not receive loving, nurturing care, the child’s ability to develop a 

sufficient regulatory system is severely compromised. In cases of severe neglect and 

abuse, the child’s life is literally at risk. For these children, their internal survival 

mechanisms become activated, dedicating all the body’s resources to remain alert in 

“survival mode.” These children perceive the world as threatening from a neurological, 

physical, emotional, cognitive, and social perspective. These children operate from a 

paradigm of fear to ensure their safety and security. Hence, we see an overly stressed-out 

child who has difficulty interacting in relationships, who struggles to behave in a loving 

way, who quite often cannot think clearly, and who swings back and forth in his 

emotional states due to an underdeveloped regulatory system. While perceived by most 

professionals as dangerous, a child with RAD is essentially a scared and stressed child 

living out of a primal survival mode in order to maintain his existence.  

With this understanding, the term “attachment-challenged” becomes more appropriate to 

use with children instead of the traditional label of “RAD child.”  In times of stress, this 

child is challenged to connect and his ability to make connection is restricted.  In fact, we 

all become attachment-challenged to some degree when we’re stressed.  Reflect for a 

moment on the last time you were overly stressed: How did you react when someone 

tried to interact with you? Be honest! Perhaps you had difficulty interacting 

appropriately. Stress causes confused and distorted thinking, and it constricts us 

emotionally, leaving little room for relationships. Thus, a child with a traumatic history 

who is living in a stressful, fear-based state, simply is not capable of nor equipped to be 

in a relationship. From a behavioral standpoint, a child living in a state of fear simply 

cannot act in a loving way. The frightening behaviors listed above are only external 

reflections of the internal fear and chaos within these children. They are simply behaviors 

that are intended for survival. 

Treatment for the attachment-challenged child needs to address this internal fear. When 

the child’s stress state can be soothed, and the deep wounds driving the fearful behaviors 

can be acknowledged, the child has an opportunity for healing. Yes, healing is possible, 

but it takes intense work and many, many repetitions of positive experiences to 

recondition the body’s reactions. It is also essential that the therapeutic attachment 

techniques and parenting paradigms enlisted for these children be grounded in 

neurological research and based in love and compassion. Such techniques can offer ways 

to create peaceful environments within the home that work to recreate safety and security 

in the insecure foundations set within these children.  

A word of caution from the author: Some therapists specializing in attachment therapy 

work from a fear-based platform and recommend techniques that are confrontational, 

aggressive, child-centered instead of family-centered, and fear-based. While these 

techniques sometimes offer short-term results, families using them are often faced with 

more severe long-term pain and challenges. Many of these therapies and therapists have 

separated themselves from dangerous techniques that have resulted in the tragic death of 

children in the past; however, they continue to lack compassion and are grounded in fear. 

Some examples of these techniques include instructing parents to force eye contact with 

their children; have children do excessive chores to feel a part of the family system; send 

children to respite care out of the home for making poor choices; give up their need to 

communicate love to their children; and put locks on the outside of children’s doors to 

keep them “safe.” When looking for appropriate interventions for families, be alert to 

these specific techniques. 

Be aware, as well, of techniques that talk in general about gaining control of a child and 

viewing the child as manipulative. These techniques are child-blaming, parent- 

controlling, and devoid of scientific research. It is counterproductive to feed more fear 

into an already scared child. When seeking help, it is highly recommended that you have 

a thorough understanding of the basis for each therapy being considered.  

When parents first begin realizing that they are dealing with an attachment-challenged 

child, they have likely already experienced many severe and disruptive behaviors in their 

homes. In these experiences, they themselves often begin to slip into their own fear and 

see the child as a threat (at times so threatening that they simply want the child out of 

their home, forever). Because the behaviors can be so intense, it is easy to lose sight of 

the child’s reality—that of a young person living in a world of pain, fear, and isolation. 

Resources are available, and hope for these families is real. Suggested resources on the 

Internet include: 

1. Beyond Consequences Institute: www.beyondconsequences.com 

2. Center for Victory: www.centerforvictory.com  

3. Child Trauma Academy: www.childtrauma.org 

4. Therapeutic Fairy Tales: http://foreverchild.net/ 

As a therapist specializing in working with attachment-challenged children, I am 

overwhelmed by great sadness every time I initially speak with a parent seeking help for 

their family. This sadness stems from the realization that all of these wounds and pain 

could have been avoided. Babies are born in a spirit of love, but it is life’s circumstances 

that shift them into a spirit of fear. All it takes to maintain this spirit of love is high 

quality care giving; it takes an emotionally available parent to create a secure and loving 

base for a child. Attachment Parenting in the formative years, from conception to three 

years old, sets the foundation for all future relationships, and it gives the child’s body’s 

own internal regulatory system the opportunity to develop to its fullest. The old adage, 

“an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure” says everything in the context of 

Attachment Parenting.  

If you’re currently struggling with a child(ren) exhibiting symptoms of RAD who’s early 

beginnings were far from nurturing and secure, I want to encourage you to have hope.  

Several years ago, I found myself in the same situation, waking up every morning 

wondering how I was going to make it through the day.  In learning more about my 

children and understanding that their behaviors were driven from a deeply wounded 

place, I was able to parent them in a way that allowed healing to begin.  Yes, it is hard 

work and it takes endurance and faith, but creating a peaceful home is possible! 

Heather T. Forbes, LCSW 

info@beyondconsequences.com 

Heather Forbes, LCSW, is the co-founder of the Beyond 

Consequences Institute, LLC. Ms. Forbes has been training in the 

field of trauma and attachment with nationally recognized, first- 

generation attachment therapists since 1999. She has been active in 

the field of adoption with experience ranging from pre-adoption to 

post-adoption clinical work. Ms. Forbes is an internationally 

published author, with her most recent book titled, Beyond 

Consequences, Logic, and Control: A Love-based Approach for 

Helping Attachment-Challenged Children With Severe Behaviors, 

endorsed by Sir Richard Bowlby, son of John Bowlby. As a 

speaker, her passion for families is known throughout the nation. 

Ms. Forbes consults with and coaches families both nationally and internationally who 

are struggling with children with severe behaviors. Much of her experience and insight on 

understanding trauma, disruptive behaviors, and attachment-related issues has come from 

her direct mothering experience with her two adopted children.  

Also, some of Keith's and my favorite spiritual websites are:

http://whchurch.org/

http://www.lifestream.org/

http://www.gracewalk.org/